its 2026~~~

a bit ago i lost some of the work on my two ongoing visual novel projects. granted what damage there was is actually fairly salvageable... its just gonna be a bother, and i dont rly feel like it rn ... so i felt like starting something new .. so i joined a jam!!

as usual i kinda have to take my time with these things, so that's exactly how i've been going about it . trying to keep a decent balance between progressing steadily and not overwhelming my easily overwhelmed rat brain !!

as always im really unsure of which parts of my idea to share before its fully finished.. its less about spoiling it and more that i'll sort of feel more pressure to deliver it exactly as ive written it if i were to write it here or somewhere else people can read.. but the general idea is that you're observing a very dissociative girl who hates herself very much. and then a girl gets hurt, ofc

the nvl display is one of the few things i managed to get done so far.. i really like little visual projects where i get to use negative space, like i did with the guts in the UI here lol . i also need to do the buttons at some point, but i think thats for later!!

from a mechanical sense i knew from the second i started working on this thing that i wanted to see if i could pull off a subtitle style for the more conversational scenes. i feel like it solves an issue ive been having writing the nightfall universe games lately where the conversations feel a bit more stilted than they wouldve been in an adv format,, im enjoying writing with this style a lot !!

recently i finished a rough, sorta hurried cut of the prologue. usually at this point id have some basic portraits ready for the main characters but this time around i focused on the CGs for the first scene because i REALLY wanted to test if this format and the nvl-to-sub and sub-to-nvl swapping read well... its very new to me !! i think this is maybe the first time ive ever done a cg im generally satisfied with for one of these projects as well lol ^^;

not much to show other than that.. which is funny cus ive been thinking about this damn thing nearly 24/7!!! got lots of plans written down and a general structure... the hardest part for me is always writing the scenes because im so so so terminally afraid of my skills as a writer, its hard for them to amount to much because i just do not have that kind of experience!! aaahh.. but ill keep at it slowly and something will come out in the end.

this concept is extremely personally poignant to me so i really really need to get it out this time... i want to super badly. and i want to think maybe someone else would connect with it, specific as it is... if anyone read it at all id be super happy !

been kind of at a standstill with art this past month, but today i worked on something pretty decent i think.

lately i've been taking a lot of comfort in separating "myself" from "my body." i like it when i choose not to call it mine, because the body feels like it limits me and takes control away from me when i know i am so much more than it. this piece is inspired by that knowledge, depicting the body limply holding onto the plushie known as ragdoll. i tried to use old royal portrait paintings as inspiration for it, though i'm not sure it shows so great. thank you angel for help with the piece as always

very little art to hang up here lately because ive mostly been spending my artistic energy on my forever-project visual novel cherubic nightfall ^^ but

yesterday (as of writing) i tried to do some character design 4 personal reasons ^^ im not sure if im happy with it yet but i'll keep doodling w
here's two random screenshots of the visual novel in questionb lol

"I am born again."